Mietzekatze
Samttatze
Säbelzahn
Kampfhahn
Kuscheltier
Kampfrevier
Fellweich
Schmusereich
Ersatzkind
Liebesblind
Wurstdieb
Kinderlieb
Mausefalle
Scharfkralle
Vogelvernichter
Charakterrichter
Löwenmähne
Weltherrschaftspläne
Peitschenschwanz
Aufmerksamkeitstanz
Zungenrau
Menschenschlau
Bettbeleger
Familienpfleger
Göttergleich
Erfindungsreich
Ohrensesseltherapeut
Menschenfreud
Daughter
Life isn’t
Mutually exclusive
Love isn’t
Mutually exclusive
Your space to live
To thrive
To grow
My space to live
To thrive
To grow
His love for you
His love for me
My love for you
My love for him
There is so much space
For it all
However, protect your love
Your love for yourself
Her pain
Is not yours to carry
Her darkness
Is not yours to follow
Her abuse
Is not yours to mirror
Her hate
Is not yours to pass on
Her bile
Is not yours to swallow
Her lie
Is not yours to believe
Her violence
Is not yours to bear
Sweet child o’mine
Brave girl high heels rolling
Beautiful mind full of stars
Smile like the sun
The warmth of summer
Come home
Little bird grown
Come home
10 years
As it began
so it ends
I handed myself over
Gave myself upI have claimed myself back
I relentlessly believe in my powerYour spite and greed
Your self-loathingWill eat you
One day
Let go of the monster
You are better than that
Geh mit Gott
Aber Geh
Abused Men
Like an Ikea shelf
She dismantled him
There were screws left
Who cares
She shrugged
Women can be abusers too
Get over it
Trembling the boards fell down
Every time she incomprehensibly panted down the phone
Threw up words like bile that won’t stay in
Projectile vomiting of hatred
Like an Ikea shelf
He would tremble
Dissociate
Disconnect
To cope
His sin? You ask
Was not to obey the psychopath
Not play the game any longer
Making her meaningless in his life
She can’t abide
Not winning
Not playing
Not cheating
Not lying
She needs to fucking win
She cheated with three different guys
Just because she could
She abused until there were witnesses
Then she ran
She span
She twisted
She warped
She threw up more bile
It’s all pointless
She is spinning
A perpetuate motion machine
Without hope to win
Over the one thing she ought to win over
Her inner demons
10 Years
Razzmatazz
Embezzled
Breeding
Absence
Futile
Angry
Lost
her
Go
I
Go
gag
Love
Jujus
Trying
Muzzled
expected
quickstep
juxtaposes
Survivor
I want to rage
I want to rage so fiercely
Like a hurricane ripping up the land
I want to rain fire and brimstone
I want flood the lands with stormwaves tall as mountains
I want to swing my sword cutting through meaningless flesh
I want to scream until your eardrums burst
I want to let go let go of holding back the chaos
And thus
I sit
My back to the wall
Arms wrapped around my knees
Because all I want to rage against
Are dead already
It would be an empty gesture
I do not make empty gestures
Sadness
Sadness is leaking
Like broken plumbing
Sewage of pain
Better out than in ey?
Trying to stop the leak
With bad habits
Chocolate
Mainly
No drugs
Never drugs
Brain on emotional rollercoaster
And it keeps spilling everywhere
If you don’t watch it
It will stick to you
After a hug with me
I don’t want that
So I leave
Walk alone
In the dark
In the woods
I am not scared
I am the woods
I breathe the silence
I am never alone
They all died
Slowly
Painfully
The perpetrators
Cheating me out of my revenge
What now?
I have no choice
But to heal now
It’s painful
Healing
Scars hurt, itch, bother
Sadness leaks everywhere
Like a flood of gue
I can’t stop it
So I just let it leak
Let it spill out
Send it on it’s way
It will stop eventually
I know