The love of others
Leaves you no choice
But revise
Your self-loathing
poetry and mixed media art
The love of others
Leaves you no choice
But revise
Your self-loathing
I think this week is the right time to publish something I wrote more than 20 years ago.
Antisemitism
Antisemit
Antisem
Anti
Anti
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Anti? … And, what for?
Antisemitismus
Antisemit
Antisem
Anti
Anti
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Anti? … Und wofür?
I am always all edges
Grating
Scratching
Upsetting
Not fitting in
I am always all edges
Saying the wrong things
Too much
Too straight
No filter
I am always all edges
Strong colours
Strong bones
Strong mind
Strong willed
I am always fighting
Windmills
Sometimes
Enemies
But they are mostly dead now
Sometimes
I wish
For a little bit
For a day or so
I could just blend in
Be a chameleon
Pretend I know how to hack this life thing
‘Another day, like thousands before.’
He thought, looking out the window facing him. The weather was fair, the sun shone, and she had opened the window.
Lucy settled on the window sill. His only friend and companion singing her ancient song of freedom. A story speaking of green fields, tall mountains, blue sky and the wind beneath wings. When the little swallow had finished her song she hopped into the room.
“Hello.” She said. “How are you? Anything new today?”
“Hello.” He said. “I feel as I always do.”
“But she got a phone call today. I could listen in on her. I think she is going to have some visitors today.”
“Oh, my Dear.” Lucy answered compassionately. “Another couple of people starring at you, going on and on about the unique brush strokes and colour combination. Debating if the beautiful blooming apple tree was taken from nature or the artists imagination. Botanists still have not identified it, despite the meticulous details.” Lucy imitated the usual spiel. She hopped closer. “You must have heard this hundred times over.”
“Oh please Lucy don’t mention the apple tree! I am not even able to see it. You know I can’t turn my head!” He paused wistfully. “Would you mind singing your song once again for me?”
So she did. Lucy sang again.
Some hours later he heard the door opening. He saw them approaching, she stood in front of him with an elderly couple telling his story again.
“So my Dears, that’s him the famous Sir Captitus in his iron armor. He is said to be bound to this picture by a spell. The only hope for his soul is the beautiful blooming apple tree behind him that he will never be able to see. The legend says, the day the curse lifts its pedals will gently shower him and his figure disappear from the painting.”
“He was a very bad knight slaughtering many people just for fun, until he fell in love with a farmer’s daughter. But because she was just a farmers daughter he could never marry her. So he abducted her while she was walking alone, and locked her into a tower where she spend her life in prison, doing his bidding.”
“But one day the beautiful girl could not take this life in prison any longer. She jumped out of the window, and at the place where she landed this beautiful blooming apple tree started to grow.”
“The girl’s mother, who had tried to free her child for a long time came to know of the incident and laid a spell on Sir Captitus. She painted this picture binding his soul for eternity, or until he found a true friend that would sing for him, the ancient song of freedom and soften his heart.”
He had heard this story—his story—more than a thousand times during his captivity, but only now, in this very moment, he recognized that he never had listened before.
This is one of the old stories I found. It was a 20 minute writing exercise during class. I edited a little (as my written English at the time was really bad), but not enough to change the tone or writing level of the story.
I dreamed of a dog o’dile tonight
His head was green and his body was white
His snout and his teeth were those of a crock
While his white furry body was one of a dog
But maybe he has had a head of a dog
And his body was green like the one of a crock
I woke up in a fuss, and can’t quite remember
I woke up by the buzz, it had snowed, it’s December
I was looking through my back-ups today and found a ton of old poems. Braze yourselves! The throwback writings are coming!